Good to be a Goodwin

Monday, May 10, 2010

I Have Been Hiding

Writing this will not be easy, but perhaps it will give me some relief. My husband whom I love so much suffers from Bipolar Syndrome. Life has never really been easy, we have had a bumpy marriage to say the least. He was diagnosed with depression and anxiety disorder about 2 years ago and was put on meds to deal with that. 2 years of those meds and 9 months of seeing a psychologist didn't change anything. He had some serious episodes where I thought I was going to lose him to suicide. The weekend before Mother's Day was great, we were busy and did fun things and celebrated a special event for my niece M. But Monday came and he was so depressed and frustrated that he didn't feel any joy at all. So he went to his appointment with his psychologist and she told him to check himself in. My mom watched the boys while we went to a local hospital ER. Sat there from 4PM until after midnight when he was transferred to another facility.
They diagnosed him bipolar and put him on new meds. He took to it really well, but living with a bipolar spouse is hard. I find myself feeling alone and scared. I feel like I have to walk on eggshells around him so I don't trigger anything.
We are in this together though. I am fighting on his team. We pray everyday for Gods grace to cover us.

So this blog just got a little serious. I will be posting coping skills on here and other info that may help someone living with a bipolar spouse.

For now just know Bipolar Syndrome is real!

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Just Wrong

Things I find wrong:

Puppy mills

Chemicals in formula

Formula companies who push themselves on the uneducated

Chemicals in food

Cruelty to animals, even if the animal is for food

Illegal immigration

Crooks who run big business having a say in our government

Criminals getting better treatment in prison then regular citizens get in the real world

Criminals getting abused in prison

People inciting violence

Illegal immigrants getting treated better than Americans in hospitals

Tax dollars going to help fund programs that support abortion

Killing babies

Controlling peoples choices

Lying government officials

Chemicals in toys

Forced institutionalized education

Depending on warring countries for our recourses

Subsidizing corn

Letting business take over crops and seeds

Controlling how much people make in honest wages
Hospitals not allowing VBACs
Outlawing Midwives

Things I think will help:

Adopt from shelters

Breastfeed, seek help

Research formula companies and practices (it will make you sick)

Buy local, the food is safer

Go to the farmers market (small farms respect their livestock)

Let the states crack down, crack down on businesses that bus in illegal’s for cheap labor

Vote out the bureaucrats

Elect more Sheriff Joes

Sheriff Joe may make his prisoners do labor and live in the hot sun but he also cracks down on abuse to criminals

Crack down on those who incite violence, freedom of speech only goes so far (Westborough especially)

America should help her citizens first

Tax dollars should go only to build our infrastructure (roads highways), and pay for protection, i.e. police, firemen, and military

Abortion is not birth control

We as a free republic (yes that is what we were supposed to be) must let people choose how they live. Also means Drs can choose not to do abortions and churches can choose not to employ certain types of people

When lies are uncovered we need to take action, including lies our current people in most offices in both parties

Buy American made wooden toys (ok so my boys don’t like those) Hey big toy companies you’re all jerks and making fun toys with lots of chemicals is wrong!

Homeschool, and stop the nationalized testing, gosh I could go on… its wrong!

Corn Syrup and other corn product are very unhealthy, so is corn fed beef

Companies should not be able buy life and control it, bad ju-ju

However dirt bags that come across dollars in dishonest ways can rot in jail
Fight! Know your body educate yourself, you can VBAC, find a new Dr or a midwife that will help
Midwives are the best at helping babies out research birth options and get to know a midwife

So here is my list add if you like.

Monday, April 19, 2010

El Paso/Tucson March 2010 Part one

Spring Break was a real treat this year. We went to El Paso where my dad has his current job for his company. After a couple days in EP we went to Tucson Az to spread the ashes of my Nanan, Papaw, and Uncle Robin. Nanan could never bring herself to spread my Uncle's ashes since he died so young from a car crash. She didn't spread Papaw's because she wanted them to be in Az where she considered home and not Missouri where she hated living.
We kept the trip light since all had been mourned. It was more of a celebration of life. My Parents, Sister and her 3 kids, My brother and his wife and their two kids, and me and my boys. Sadly D and my sisters husband both had to work.
I know you want pictures.