Dreaming of Hawai'i Lately

I miss Hawaiian Summers! Maybe, not just Hawaiian ones, maybe I miss the lack of responsibility, and freedom to read and play all day. 

I do miss the soft grass *Texas is seriously lacking in the grass area right now* and tropical breeze. I do miss the soft sandy beaches, and scent of Huli Huli Chicken. 

At this pointe, however, I do believe it is the responsibility thing. I complained about having to wash dishes twice a week and having to clean my room...which was just toys. Now I have to wash clothes for 4 people and do dishes 6 or 7 nights a week. 

I am in a whiney mood though, sorry. Woes me...lol

Enjoy some pictures while you are here.

 On our way to the beach 1990

 On the pass, headed to the beach. Had to stop for a soda and the view.

That is me walking down the stairs in my ruffle butt bikini.

I want to go on vacation...just Dustin and I. Hawai'i would be wonderfully romantic. Someday, when money is not so tight, I guess.

I leave you with this: "...I thank my God through Jesus Christ for you..." Romans 1:8 KJV

Why am I up?

1:40 AM CDT, and I sit here in front of my computer, that now sits on a desk...*happy dance*...tired and alone. Not lonely (no heart ache here), the good alone, the alone where you can think and breath, and hope and dream.
After digging deep, and getting through all the medical BS, I found an actual list of side effects for the medications Dustin was taking. Funny trend I saw...the side effects were symptoms of Bi-polar. We did more research and found information about dirty tricks drug makers pull and how medical science has never proven any of these afflictions to be true. Doctors who talk about this stuff are ostracized, and they rest blindly go on and prescribe because these pretty young people come in and tell them about these medications. Seriously go do the research for yourself, it will make you sick.
We don't need medication for stress! We need coping skills, we need to breath, and find a positive outlet. Not something to trow ourselves into to cause more stress! Take up a calming activity, like knitting or sewing, just for you. Collect comic books...write a blog! Like Dustin has started doing. He is The Token Geek Dad! Check him out! He is learning to channel his stress and anger into constructive things. I am so proud of him!
He is Wellbutrin free! And down to 1 Clonazepam half in the morning half at night. He has fought hard and continues to do so. He drives me bananas at time, but he is my best friend! I cannot wait until his body is free of these horrible poisons!
In other news I took the boys to the dentist. Big brother had 4 cavities, so far he has gotten 2 of them filled. He gets 1 cap next month and another soon after. Baby brother has nearly perfect teeth with a slight overbite.

They are growing so fast I can hardly keep up!

Hello Blogger My Old Friend

For Mother's Day I got this fancy new Android phone. The Samsung Nexus X, and today it occurred to me that perhaps Blogger has an App....and they do!! I'm blogging in the car on the way to my mom's house. No I'm not driving. Dustin is, I'm not crazy. Speaking of crazy and Dustin ....that's a whole other post. I'm off for now because my phone erased about 10 minutes worth of writing and we are almost to our destination.

His Deep Love

So many people see God as against people. We all have sin. A person who judges another is just as much as a sinner as the one he is judging. God loves everyone of us! He loves Osama Bin Laden, He loves the Westboro Baptist Church, He loves Obama, and Oprah. He loves Sarah Palin, he loves GW Bush, He loves me and you! He loves gay people, He loves people who don't believe in him, He loves Muslims, He love people who have ended a pregnancy. He is saddened when people rebuke him, or tell/believe lies about Him, or do things to cause pain to themselves or others, but He is not out to get us. We are not called to judge each other, we are called to love one another. He is for us, on our team. He desires to love us. He sent His Son to take on every single sin past present and future, so we can have a relationship with God. He wants to walk with us. He is on my team, how about yours?

Romans31-36, 31 What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? 32 He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? 33 Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. 34 Who then is the one who condemns? No one. Christ Jesus who died—more than that, who was raised to life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. 35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? 36 As it is written:

“For your sake we face death all day long;
we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.” {Psalm 44:22}

37 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 38 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[k] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.



HIS GRACE SAVES US!!!!